Through the Pensieve

For self-sacrificing love, friendships and redemption:




Thanks to Ben Hutton

Gethsemane

Here are some reasons to why you should not 'read' this post:

1. It will completely spoil a movie for you if you haven't already watched it, and I really would not want that to happen. So if you haven't watched Se7en, and you want to, you probably shouldn't continue 'reading' this post.

2. The clips are dark and disturbing.

3. If you are sensitive to swear words, every third word that Brad Pitt's character utters is a swear word.

Now, having washed my hands clean of any guilt of making you watch it, here's the clip:



You get the intensity right? You get the struggle. You feel the dementedness. And then, there is a part of you, that keeps repeating in your head: "Ok, don't pull the trigger. DO NOT PULL THE TRIGGER" and yet when it is pulled there is a there is no anger, but a resignation of our fallenness. Somewhere you go back heavy hearted saying, "I know. You are human. It's ok. I would do the same."

"And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly; and his sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground." - Luke 22 : 44

Gethsemane was intense too.

And, He did what I would not do. He stood up, crushed the head of the serpent, and went to the cross.

That is why I worship Him.

Magic

"Why were you so different last term?" said Jill presently.  

"A lot of queer things happened to me in the hols," said Eustace mysteriously.  

"What sort of things?" asked Jill.  

Eustace didn't say anything for quite a long time. Then he said:  

"Look here, Pole, you and I hate this place about as much as anybody can hate anything, don't we?"  

"I know I do," said Jill.  

"Then I really think I can trust you."  

"Dam' good of you," said Jill.  

"Yes, but this is a really terrific secret. Pole, I say, are you good a believing things? I mean things that everyone here would laugh at?" 

"I've never had the chance," Said Jill, "but I think I would be."  

"Could you believe me if I said I'd been right out of the word - outside this world - last hols?"  

"I wouldn't know what you meant."  

"Well, don't let's bother about worlds then. Supposing I told you I'd been in a place where animals can talk and where there are - er - enhancements and dragons - and - well, all the sorts of things you have in fairy -tales." Scrubb felt terribly awkward as he said this and got red in the face. 

"How would you get there?" said Jill. She also felt curiously shy.  

"The only way you can - by Magic"

Progress Sheet

So I thought that I should take some time to give you guys a straight up idea about my progress as a developer. So here goes:

Where I am at:

Where I need to be:

What I do

So, I didn't create that thing, and don't know whom to give due credit to. :-/

A whole year of work

So I recently finished what seems to be the first year of doing real work in my life. Here is what I learnt:

• Life is a fight. Take it that way. Don't run away from it. Don't take the escape routes, not because real life will end up catching you one way or the other, but because you might actually end up escaping it all throughout. You might actually end up taking each escape route, all your life and then die, painlessly while you sleep in a your royal bed inside the mansion that you build from 80 years of your life's savings. Don't do that. Stop running, turn around, look the beast in the eye, and fight. And don't look the beast in the eye because you are mightier, but because He is watching… because He is mightier. It might beat the crap out of you, but He knows the beast, and He knows what he is doing, and He knows what He is letting be done.
 
• Ok, agreed, we are fallen. May be he did He ordained pain... real, painful, heartbreaking, i-don't-feel-i-can-go-on-anymore pain and death. May be he indeed made no promises of health, the continuous availability of your limbs or skills, money or of your loved ones. May be He didn't suffer so that we don't suffer. But then, you see, He is the business of making you a better worshipper.
 
• Apparently, God takes his job of being a father seriously.
 
• Good design is good. Good code is good. I want to say it is godly, but I won't make a doctrine out of it.
 
• If you are not learning, then you are not living. So, learn a lot.
 
• Money is too quantifiable to not be deceptive.
 
• God is a giver, through and through, and he definitely wants his sons and daughters to emulate that. He takes it to heart if they don't.
 
• Pray a lot. In-fact, 'a lot' should be defined by how much you pray. It is really worth the shot.
 
• God is opposed to the proud, but gives grace to the humble. 
 
• Trust the Lord with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.
 
• Seek first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness, then all those things that you need, and, really, much more,  will be added to you. 

Apart from that, I learnt a huge amount of ruby, rails, sysadmin, git, unix and software engineering  

Insolence

Dear God, 

I have bent my knees, 

And humbled my heart, 

I am ready for the daily

routine of ours. 

Shall we wrestle? 

"Punk! do you know who you are talking with ?"

I do, 

I really do, 

He could break me ,

He could wound me, 

With just one commmand

But I am talking with my Father, 

And asking for my friends. 

It does not matter to me then, 

That you think I am insolent.